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Into the Real World

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I have to say, I never, ever imagined that I would go back into a finished piece and ADD IN a white outline between colors and stray colors like that to make it look unfinished. Every fiber of my being wants to go in and clean this image up , but I can't do it because that would ruin it. I actually had to go back in and undo a lot of the polish I was automatically putting on it because that is not the point.

Anyway, this is going to be my entry in :iconleichenengel:'s Wishes and Nightmares contest. For this contest, your piece has to show both a powerful wish and a true nightmare.

When I was a little girl, my greatest wish was to graduate college. It was more than that, though. I wanted to get out of the cycle of poverty my family was caught in and truly learn from the mistakes and regrets my relatives had. I wanted to become something better than I was.

As I grew older and got closer to my dreams, as I began to excel and was a star student, though, I began to fear the day it all came to an end... I began to fear graduation. I realized that once I was no longer in school, that drive for betterment, that desire to make something more of myself, would no longer give me a competitive edge because everyone would be like that. I would no longer stand out. I would be just another anonymous adult, all working equally hard toward some nebulous future. In many cases that would be because their dreams weren't well-defined to start with; in mine, it was going to be because my dream had already been achieved.

So my greatest wish was to graduate from college.. and the nightmare it created for me was emerging into the adult world used to greatness, only to find anonymity and aimlessness.

Now I go back to the school I went to, even to other schools, and nothing seems real. Everything is cut and dried, flat... their problems seem so small. But you know, people notice you there. They see you. Everywhere I go it seems like the world is looking past me now.
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480x640px 49.96 KB
Make
Nintendo
Model
NintendoDS
Date Taken
Dec 22, 2012, 11:36:49 PM
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HopeSentinel's avatar
I agree with the comments and both sides, to be honest.

But what we all need to do is find a way over, around, or through those mental blockades of, "I can't" and know we CAN, too.

Great work to portray it.